"I Owe It to Me"

March is here!!! I couldn't sleep for some reasons so I got up to spend sometime reading a devotional while listening to I.H.O.P. Webstream. I'm taking my leave from facebook for a while to get spend sometime taking care of my spiritual, emotional, and physical health. The past few months went by fast though chaotic. After the loss of our "Baby Jacob" I've had my ups and downs. Then a chains of events that triggered some emotional trauma of the past that I thought I dealt with came surfaced. I'm thankful that they surfaced so that I can deal with them. I made an appointment with the Healing Rooms and can't wait to begin my journey to healing.

In my devotional Zephaniah 3:17 "The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing." Wow, my Daddy God loves so me so much that He longs for me to be still and draw closer to Him and sings over me. I want to be still for Him, even if it means my house will be messy, chores aren't done to perfection, craft projects will left on the shelf for a while, etc.

My Daddy takes delight in me. All my life, I don't ever remember my dad telling me he is proud of me for anything good I've done or for any accomplishments. In someway he shows it by showing up at the events with his fancy camera and takes pictures. He never says anything directly to me. Sometimes he even lectures me so I am greatful he ignores me and my achievements. But not my Daddy God! He delights in me even when I didn't win anything or done anything good. He just loves me because He took great delights in creating me in His own image and placing me in my mother's womb. He says I am "fearfully and wonderfully made."

Because I am so beautiful and precious in His eye, I want to take care of what He had given me and take care of my temple. I am not excessively overweight, though I kept 5 pounds since I got married and had a baby. I have been fine with it, not overly obessed with losing the pounds, but I'm not exactly content with it because I know I can do better. It's not because I don't have a choice, it's just simply because I have been lazy and neglecting my wellness. I noticed I am not as active. My sleep pattern's all messed up so when I get to sleep I sleep in really late. This doesn't work out well with having a toddler who sleeps for 10-12 hours a night. When she rises, she's all perky!! I don't like that I feel tired more so I stay in bed quite a bit and she thinks I am always sick. It concerns her and I can tell it effects her as well.

So, with all this said, I am contending for complete healing and restoration along with a new body for the summer and as well as for my sister's wedding in June. I am the matron of honor and I want to look fine in that pretty bridesmaid dress. :-) I am sure my sweet husband doesn't mind having a hot looking wife again! In turn, I hope I motivate him to get fit too.

So here's the plan:
- spend 1-hr with the Lord
- pray continually
- praise Him often
- journal daily
- plan healthier meals
- eat healthy
- drink more water (weaning off sodas)
- exercise daily
- spend more time with Allison outside
- get adequate amount of sleep
- rise early
- smile often
- love more!