Journaling

I have given up journaling since Allison turned one. I bought myself a really cute journal to record my pregnancy and later added an embelsishment on the front cover that says, "Expect Mirracles" because at my six weeks I had to go the emergency room due to bleeding and other symptoms. When I got the emergency room they told me that I was having a miscarriage and there wasn't anything they could do for me so they made me wait for four hours in the waiting room while they let a guy with a cold in hours before me. It was a very hard time for me of not knowing how to feel whether I need to accept that I was loosing my baby or that I need to cling on to the fact the baby was safe.

Finally I was admitted and after dozen of times they tried to hook me up to an iv and I was already terrified of needles. They got an ultrasound specialist to come see me and she was extremely rude. It was then I realized how much Danner was hurting and wanting the baby that everything inside me prayed for the baby to be safe. The entire time I didn't know what to look for as it was my first ultrasound. Then the tech said, "looks like there's heart blinking on the screen." And Danner agreed with her. They both saw it at the same time and I totally missed it. The tech had to show me again so I can see my baby's heart beats. It was amazing and it was a miracle I was expecting. After 8 hours spent at the hospital, we walked away knowing that our baby was safe. I often wondered if I was carrying twins and lost one of our precious babies.

Since then I recorded every ups and downs with the pregnancy along with the joy of being a mom and the struggles and fear of the uncertainties. When Allison was born I kept journaling all her Firsts. My last entry was her one year birthday and it was fun and emotional at the same time. I hope that my journal will be a treasure for her someday that serves as a reminder of how much she was loved and wanted since the Lord formed her in my womb.

"For Thou form my inward parts: Thou didst weave me in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to Thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made." Psalm 139:13-14

Third Time is a Charm Right?

Once again I had to figure out my account sign in name because I don't blog enough. Since I left xanga two years ago I can't bring myself back to blogging world. I miss it. I'm going to make an effort to blog more.

Let's see...Allison is now two and half and an amazing toddler!! Some of the things she can do that come off the top my head are:

- Ride a tricycle around the block
- Pray by herself at meals
- Fly a kite
- Know the entire Alphabets
- Count to 12
- Know her colors
- Brush her teeth without assistance
- Use the potty (work in progress)
- Open the fridge and help herself to whatever she can a hold of
- Sing "Amazing Grace" and dozen of other songs include the Vietnamese ones I taught her
- Put her face in the water without being afraid
- Do splits and summersaults
- Tell you all about traffic lights
- Help Mommy open and the close the store (a big helper)
- Draw hearts and pictures for everyone in the family

God has been so good to our family and we cannot believe how far He's been taking us. We are so thankful for the unity we have a married couple and learning to trust in one another after all the stuff we've been through. The Lord is blessing our daughter with many gifts and talents. We love how energetic, brave and smart she is. She's tall and growing out of her shoes and clothes it's like we can hardly keep up with her.

We signed her up for swim lessons this July. Danner wanted to wait for the second session so the water is warmer which is fine with me. Looks like I get to come along with Danner to watch Allison learn how to swim. It's funny because grandma and great-grandma are coming too! I'm blessed that she has family members that love her and support her in every way.