All my life growing up I was known to be the cleanest child and the one who organized everything around the house and actually was the only one who kept the house in order until I left home. So, I have this thing about me that I hate messy, dirty things. I just cannot stand it and I guess it's safe to say that I'm chalked up to be Obssesive Composive. For example: I loved watermelons but can't stand that the juice running all through my hands and such, which brought me to my fear of having children! Because I cannot have children who are filthy with sticky fingers from popsicles, juice and such. That was my plan at least until the Lord opened my eyes. Until now all I have done with Allison only the things that I know is messy proofed and I am extra careful now with her and markers as she got a hold of a giant permanent marker and wen to town on my face and all over her toys.
I'm so scared of letting go and letting my child makes a mess in the kitchen because it really stresses me out when I have to clean it up. Part of it is because I'm not a full time stay at home so I have work and responsibilities when I get home from work that I didn't need the extra chores to do. I know I sound like a control freak, but this why I'm blogging again: to let go of things I cannot control, have so fun with my daughter and at the same time making memories. I'm making a list of things I want to do with her this summer. (Allison does have a good life and has plenty of childhood memories and gets to do what a lot of toddlers get to do, so it's not like I really deprived her. I just haven't let her do the things I'm scared of, that's all.)
Things I will do with my daughter this summer:
1. make mud pies
2. dance in the rain (only when it's safe)
3. finger paint a bunch of projects
4. bake cookies (the entire process)
5. catch lightning bugs
6. wade in the creek
7. eat a ton of watermelon (and who cares if the juice gets everywhere!!)
8. dig for seashells
9. build real sand castles on the beach
10. take pictures with every Disney Princesses we can find!
11. (gonna think some more)
TRANG
Learning to walk with the Lord and raising my child(ren) in Jesus and loving them for who they are because they are beautifully made. Serve an awesome God with my husband. Serve at New Beginnings Pregnancy Services. Love my life and all its wonders.
DANNER
You can say we fell in love at first sight when we met during my freshman year of college and he was a Coast Guard home to visit family and friends. We dated over three years of long distance and got married 01.07.06. He's the love of my life and my hero!! He's studying for Paramedic degree because he's good at rescuing people.
ALLISON
She came into our lives and changed our world since 11.12.07. She's an explorer and a natural leader. She is her Mema's "Sun Shine." She is a joy to be around and sometimes can be quite exhausting as she's always on the go. We love her with all our hearts.
Lilli and Colby
They are the best of dogs and are inseparable!! They are Allison's hunting dogs when we play hide and seek. As of now Allison thinks they are her sister and brother.
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